Hope everyone is having a safe and happy holiday weekend. Nicki and I have been doing our usual not much. Well I am not doing much and Nicki is busy working on all the different things she is involved with. She is so much busier here than when we were in Minnesota and for the most part I think she is enjoying it. She helped our friends Chris and Heather move on Saturday as well as practiced for the upcoming Bartlesville SunFest that her worship band is playing in. Lots of fun stuff.
So the other day I really came out firing with that last blog. And *gasp* here is another one. Part of the changes I want to make is to just write some stuff. I have tried to talk myself into writing before and always decide that none of it is very original or important but that is done. It still may not be original or important but it will be an outlet for me to say things that might be bothering me, things that are making me happy, or just to babble. There will be times where I go on and on and on and there may be time where I just pop on to say hi! But I ask you my faithful readers...keep me on it. If you don't see something new every couple days, yell at me on Facebook or text me or call or something. Right now I need some loving kicks in the ass on a lot of fronts and this is one I plan on keeping up with.
Tuesday Nick and I are gonna start working on some new adventures. I am sure some of you are looking for more specifics on what is going and its not that complicated its just still something I have trouble talking about. I don't really know why. It has always been the proverbial elephant in the room. Anyway I will just say important "lifestyle" change are going into full effect. I am not using the "D" word because that is just a word that just reeks of failure. So have you figured it out yet? I'm sure you have, you are smart people :)
With that I am going to try and get some sleep. Its 430 am here in beautiful Oklahoma and I have been told in no uncertain terms we are "doing something fun tomorrow, I demand it!" I guess staying out of the 90 degree heat in the wonderful central air is not fun enough :)
Talk soon
PS Congrats to my brother Jeremy and his wife Heather on the birth of their beautiful baby girl Everleigh Rae Burr...she now make 3 E's for the Las Vegas Burr's, joining Esme and Ethan. Gotta make another Vegas trip to visit my favorite kiddos!!
Monday, May 31, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
I Am The Worlds Worst Blogger
Its true I am dreadful at keeping this thing updated. That is one of a handful of things I am changing in the coming days, weeks, and months.
Tonight/this morning was one of those times when you know you will look back one day and realize this is where your whole life changed. I am not really ready to get into detail about the whole thing yet. Suffice to say I am okay and Nicki is fine. So Dad you can relax reading this. There is no baby or anything like that. Just time for some changes in life. I am gonna use this blog to hopefully help get through what I imagine is going to be a tough road. I wrote on my Twitter feed that I was tired of not being in control of things in my life. I accept that I can't control everything but there are plenty of things that I can control that I currently do not have a handle on. So tonight is step one of fixing that. Time to rise up and do work! There are going to be rough patches and I will probably stumble. I might even fall but it is time to stop hiding behind what is easy. They say good writers borrow and great writers flat out steal...well I am no great writer but I am going to steal straight from the greatness that is Jimmy Dugan (A League of Their Own) "Its supposed to be hard. If it wasn't hard everyone would do it. The hard...is what makes it great!"
The hard is what makes it great is how I am gonna try and look at the next journey of my life. I am tired of being a fuck up. I am tired of letting people down. I am tired of being a disappointment. Some might say I am not these things but this is what I am to myself and it is what I want to change. I think I might finally be ready to fix me. I have never been able to figure it out but I have found the one person who can get through to me and who's help I am ready to accept. The help has been there many times but as been said a million time before and will likely be said a billion more...'you can't help anyone that isn't willing to help themselves.'
So this is where I am right now. For the handful of people that will read this I am sure its pretty clear what is going on and as I get more comfortable with talking about it I will make it even more clear to those that might not. I honestly have no idea why I am writing all of this other than to to just get it out. Change seems to work a lot better for me if I just put it out in the universe so there we go. Here is to the start of new things and to unknown possibilities.
Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead.
-- Louisa May Alcott
Talk soon
Tonight/this morning was one of those times when you know you will look back one day and realize this is where your whole life changed. I am not really ready to get into detail about the whole thing yet. Suffice to say I am okay and Nicki is fine. So Dad you can relax reading this. There is no baby or anything like that. Just time for some changes in life. I am gonna use this blog to hopefully help get through what I imagine is going to be a tough road. I wrote on my Twitter feed that I was tired of not being in control of things in my life. I accept that I can't control everything but there are plenty of things that I can control that I currently do not have a handle on. So tonight is step one of fixing that. Time to rise up and do work! There are going to be rough patches and I will probably stumble. I might even fall but it is time to stop hiding behind what is easy. They say good writers borrow and great writers flat out steal...well I am no great writer but I am going to steal straight from the greatness that is Jimmy Dugan (A League of Their Own) "Its supposed to be hard. If it wasn't hard everyone would do it. The hard...is what makes it great!"
The hard is what makes it great is how I am gonna try and look at the next journey of my life. I am tired of being a fuck up. I am tired of letting people down. I am tired of being a disappointment. Some might say I am not these things but this is what I am to myself and it is what I want to change. I think I might finally be ready to fix me. I have never been able to figure it out but I have found the one person who can get through to me and who's help I am ready to accept. The help has been there many times but as been said a million time before and will likely be said a billion more...'you can't help anyone that isn't willing to help themselves.'
So this is where I am right now. For the handful of people that will read this I am sure its pretty clear what is going on and as I get more comfortable with talking about it I will make it even more clear to those that might not. I honestly have no idea why I am writing all of this other than to to just get it out. Change seems to work a lot better for me if I just put it out in the universe so there we go. Here is to the start of new things and to unknown possibilities.
Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead.
-- Louisa May Alcott
Talk soon
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